The gift of giving :)

 

This is Heather Jones Paganelli, our oky’s cookies contests winner! She nominated Bristol Myers- Squibb Children’s Hospital in New Brunswick, NJ. They also won wonderful cookies made by me 🙂

 

 

Today is a wonderful day! We delivered the cookies to the hospital, and I couldn’t have been any happier. I want to say thank you to everyone that works in the medical field. Thank you for trying your best to put a smile on our faces, a band-aid in our boo boo’s, ….thank you! I enjoyed making these cookies, a lot of love was put into them,  Thank you!

When my daughter Zofia was 1 week old, exactly one week old..she chocked on her own vomit. I think I will never forget that day, because we could have lost her…….(big breath)…..I remember Johnny holding her up, not being able to unlock her mouth that was just shut closed, she wouldn’t open it…she was turning purple….God was with me that day. I grabbed the phone dialed 911, took Zofia and put her on the couch….they told me to try to perform CPR…I had my two fingers on her chest, while Johnny was trying to put air in her mouth…”come on Zofia, breathe! breathe!” Johnny yelling……she cried….started spitting out liquid….she was breathing. Right as soon as her first cry, the ambulance arrived, and the EMT’s came in and took her…suctioned her up. It was the longest 5 minutes of my life.

“God please don’t take my daughter”…I will never forget those words Johnny said.

The ambulance was going pretty fast….I was holding my daughter in my arms, as they where still checking her. I could hear the liquid still in her lungs.

We arrived at the hospital…they laid her down…I will never forget Alejandro, the nurse that was in charge of my daughter. He told me that he would do his best to not hurt Zofia, since her little veins where not even visible. He did such a great job, and Zofia did cry a bit but then was ok.

I was supposed to go to the mall that day with my mother…but I decided to stay…I am happy that I made that decision.

I was not able to talk about what happened for a while…the thought of that day…I couldn’t get myself to talk about it. I still cry when I think about it.

My Pediatrician told me not to worry about it, it happens so often, she told me that I was quick to react without paniking, and that made such a big difference. That Zofia is good and healthy, and that we did a good job handeling the situation……It made me feel better.

The Doctor’s and Nurses that where there that day were very helpful, and took good care of my little monster. Thank You!

I sometimes feel as if it was my fault, that maybe if I would have held her better, or burped her better, that it wouldn’t have happened. But I know that I reacted like any mother would..I was not going to lose my daughter that day, I was going to help her…I will always help them.

So once again, THANK YOU! For all the work you do, for those hard moments where you too suffer the way we do when our kids are hurt, or in pain. You guys feel that pain too, and You try to make it better!

Love to all!

 

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