Emotions :)

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What a week lol….I really enjoy making different cookies at a time. In May I did soooo many crosses that I was just a bit crossed out towards the end lol…but I really enjoy making a mix of cookies, keeps it interesting for me , specially when I do custom cookies for customers…I did two big ones this past week which are pictured above…they came out really cute 🙂

It has been hot, and it keeps on getting hotter….I do not enjoy baking in the summer but I have to do what I have to do lol….Thank goodness for Air conditioners! But seriously, this heat and humidity has been making me a bit uncomfortable and very lazy. Ok , yes I’m pregnant, but I have always been very energetic, It’s just this darn hot weather we are getting lol…on the up side, my kids have been enjoying the kiddie pool. They really , really enjoy the water, and I love the fact that they are getting some color lol…this way I can stop being called their nanny 🙂

This week, I will be going away and I do have three orders to do….Yes I know, I kept telling myself “No orders OKY, no orders!”….but it is so hard for me to sometimes say no, specially when it involves weddings or engagement parties….I really appreciate the business I get and I enjoy challenges 🙂 I am halfway done with these orders, and I can’t wait to share the pictures.

I let my emotions get the best of me this weekend…I keep realizing that I make myself feel the way I feel…meaning that if I am overwhelmed with something I try to just put it in the back of my mind and move on…but in the end it gets to me, and sometimes I feel like I rather just not talk about it because I might not make sense….crazy? maybe, but I know that I have to talk it out, specially with Johnny, since he is the one who is always about “talking things out” and “never going to bed being mad”….and he has definitely been my rock, but sometimes I do breakdown, and I realized why…….I am not as strong as I tell myself that I am, and that I also need someone to take care of me…not that Johnny doesn’t do that, I mean it in the way that It is ok for me to be scared, or sad and to have someone there to just hold me and tell me that things are going to be ok…I am the type of person that can hold a lot in side, A LOT….but why? Why hold it all in side??? I’m afraid to be weak, I’m afraid of failure, I’m afraid to lose control of things…..ahhh lol lol lol I have to tell myself , that it is ok to be afraid, but I shouldn’t let it stop me from being Me.

Blogging definitely makes me get things out, and reading what I just typed, let’s me analyze myself lol…great therapy! Johnny is looking at me right now, wondering why I’m laughing to a screen….yep, crazy over here! lol

Life is a journey. All these new emotions, old emotions…they are a part of Me, and learning new things about myself, definitely makes me feel different, in the sense that I have definitely changed throughout all these years…Getting married and about to have my third monster has definitely changed me…I am not the same person I used to be, and I am not the person I put myself to be….not making much sense right now , but I will figure Me out lol. All I know is that I am lucky to have the family I have..they always brighten up my days 🙂

Lot’s of love to you all!

 

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